Good bye Nate!
by Nathan Senn on Tuesday, January 11, 2011 at 12:49am
Last year was a year I will never forget a year that changed me and the way I looked at life. I learned allot last year more than I really wanted to. But the most important thing I learned is that The God of the bible is the only true God and he loves and cares about us. Last year I started doing Meth I thought I would be able to control my use but then I tried to quit but I had got addicted to it. It imprisoned my life I took everything I had away from me, my mind, my friends, my morels, my family, my health, my money, my respect, my job. It left me numb and alone afraid to face life or reality. Then demons started following me everywhere I went the sky turned black and I seen hell on earth I was so afraid of what was happening to me but I seen no escape. Then one night I decided to pray and ask God for help. It went something like this "God I know your real; and I’m really confused right now and need some help I don’t want to live like this anymore show yourself to me God help me find you." Then God spoke to me and said "Nathan you know I’m real but you wanted it your way you try to feel that emptiness in your life by satisfying your flesh but it’s never enough you always need more. Give your life to me and I will forgive your sins and feel your emptiness" then I said "God I give my life to you all of it I’m going to follow whatever you want in my life, please God forgive me for my sin you know I’ve done some really bad stuff in my life I know I deserve to burn in hell for, I believe in your son Jesus Christ please come in to my heart forgive me and make me clean" I felt something change in side of me and a peace come over me something I had never felt all my fear was gone I was given a new life. I prayed " Thank you God I know you real I love you for fixing me" at this time I was sitting in my truck on the side of the road with no gas left at 5am I called my dad and told him I gave my life to Christ and I wanted to start living for God I think it shocked him a lil or a lot. I walked to the gas station and someone gave me some money to get some gas. I knew then I had to quit doing drugs but I was a full blown drug addict I went home and flushed my stash. I started calling friend and telling them what had happened some were happy some laughed and said just wait a few days and you’ll be over it. But I knew I had found what I was looking for. I started going to church I still was smoking weed sometimes but God kept telling me to quit. My sister told me about teen challenge I didn’t want to go but I knew it would help me with my addictions. Someone from church asked me if I wanted to get baptized after I got baptized I never smoked weed again. I went to teen challenge were God showed me his plan for my life and showed me how to live drug free and have a relationship with him. Since then I’ve seen the same change in some of my friends. God told me he wants me to help others, and that what I plan to do. I have now been 100% drug free for almost 4months and yes from cigarettes to God gives me the strength to wake everyday and say I’m not going to do drugs today. Those who I hurt and wronged last year I’m sorry for what I did and how it has affected your life’s please forgive me I’m sorry. I want to thank all those in my life who prayed for me. My sister Amanda spillers who's prayers I felt. I want to thank all my friends that were there for me though this hard time in my life thanks Justin for being a friend to me when everyone else gave up on me and I’m glad you found God to. And most of all my family who's dedicated prayer and support helped me find a new life. Thank you God I’m free now I love life now and cherish every moment of it life really is a gift from God. And we owe him everything.
Last year was a year I will never forget a year that changed me and the way I looked at life. I learned allot last year more than I really wanted to. But the most important thing I learned is that The God of the bible is the only true God and he loves and cares about us. Last year I started doing Meth I thought I would be able to control my use but then I tried to quit but I had got addicted to it. It imprisoned my life I took everything I had away from me, my mind, my friends, my morels, my family, my health, my money, my respect, my job. It left me numb and alone afraid to face life or reality. Then demons started following me everywhere I went the sky turned black and I seen hell on earth I was so afraid of what was happening to me but I seen no escape. Then one night I decided to pray and ask God for help. It went something like this "God I know your real; and I’m really confused right now and need some help I don’t want to live like this anymore show yourself to me God help me find you." Then God spoke to me and said "Nathan you know I’m real but you wanted it your way you try to feel that emptiness in your life by satisfying your flesh but it’s never enough you always need more. Give your life to me and I will forgive your sins and feel your emptiness" then I said "God I give my life to you all of it I’m going to follow whatever you want in my life, please God forgive me for my sin you know I’ve done some really bad stuff in my life I know I deserve to burn in hell for, I believe in your son Jesus Christ please come in to my heart forgive me and make me clean" I felt something change in side of me and a peace come over me something I had never felt all my fear was gone I was given a new life. I prayed " Thank you God I know you real I love you for fixing me" at this time I was sitting in my truck on the side of the road with no gas left at 5am I called my dad and told him I gave my life to Christ and I wanted to start living for God I think it shocked him a lil or a lot. I walked to the gas station and someone gave me some money to get some gas. I knew then I had to quit doing drugs but I was a full blown drug addict I went home and flushed my stash. I started calling friend and telling them what had happened some were happy some laughed and said just wait a few days and you’ll be over it. But I knew I had found what I was looking for. I started going to church I still was smoking weed sometimes but God kept telling me to quit. My sister told me about teen challenge I didn’t want to go but I knew it would help me with my addictions. Someone from church asked me if I wanted to get baptized after I got baptized I never smoked weed again. I went to teen challenge were God showed me his plan for my life and showed me how to live drug free and have a relationship with him. Since then I’ve seen the same change in some of my friends. God told me he wants me to help others, and that what I plan to do. I have now been 100% drug free for almost 4months and yes from cigarettes to God gives me the strength to wake everyday and say I’m not going to do drugs today. Those who I hurt and wronged last year I’m sorry for what I did and how it has affected your life’s please forgive me I’m sorry. I want to thank all those in my life who prayed for me. My sister Amanda spillers who's prayers I felt. I want to thank all my friends that were there for me though this hard time in my life thanks Justin for being a friend to me when everyone else gave up on me and I’m glad you found God to. And most of all my family who's dedicated prayer and support helped me find a new life. Thank you God I’m free now I love life now and cherish every moment of it life really is a gift from God. And we owe him everything.
